i actually don’t have one. i’m the type of person that loves to switch things around when i have the option to so one day i may be focusing on one exercise more than another. and whenever i see a routine i like to try it. maybe one day i’ll fall in love w/ one.

So today I’m going out for a run. I’m about to finish some homework, take a shower and then begin. I’m so pumped right now!

my mom knows. i’ve started saying that i’m gaining weight for the past couple days and she’s indirectly agreed lol.

we recently went grocery shopping and bought a whole bunch of healthier food like fruits which i’m starting to eat but i want to start exercising too and i told her she should with me but i don’t think she will.

i want to do it on my own but i have yet to begin. i really don’t want to regret it this summer or turn to drastic measures just to lose weight so i must begin soon >.<

ugh i wish i had a twin or a work-out buddy… any takers? \m/

i try it every now and then, when i’m extremely pissed off and not even thinking …i do it cause atm i think my guts will release all the shit in them but literally nothing comes out so i just laugh at myself after cause its all out of temporary anger ..yeah. and did i mention nothing comes out?

i am tired of my stomach jiggling! hahaha. i want to get fit. i want to be healthy. i want to look good and be proud of the reflection i see in the mirror. i feel like losing weight would also help my confidence quite a lot. & yes i’m doing this for me.

probably that i won’t get enough. that i’ll get addicted to losing weight and fall in love with all the compliments that i’d receive and not stop …just for some more.

her smile. her stomach is flat. her legs are almost non existent. her tattoos. she’s not afraid to show skin. her confidence is probably through the roof - if not she’s a good actor. but like i said, her smile. she’s happy and when i reach my goals i will be too.

I have a deep love of words, but a strong hatred for speaking them out loud to others.